Dear Alex,

You were upset... why?

It couldn't be what was for dinner, 1st you were long upset before that... and you like what it is... but you refuse to eat... so why?

Oh so it rained in the late afternoon and early evening and you were worried you can't sleep outside... you like sleeping outside... mainly because, well, you were able to sleep there... you sleep like a baby if you sleep outside the house, under the moon and stars... and you are able to sleep early... unlike, if you are in you bed... you tend sleep talk and walk, keeps moving around the bed, you are very restless...

That was it, wasn't it...? But then you are rationale enough to know that you can not blame anyone for the rain... you know that no one can control the weather..? Given that you were worried to not able to sleep... but then again, you were upset before hand, the rain just aggravated it...? So what started it...?

Another theory is that you were talking about moving already to the old house... and well, they have cleaned it already last Saturday and it's already Monday... you have not move in yet, and that one of your cousins mentioned the old house is dusty again... in the talk over lunch, it seemed you are to move that afternoon... but your brother just kept playing online game, from after lunch and didn't stop until it started raining. Which, after, he we to sleep...

Yes, that's upsetting, that will upset anyone... Not you, though... you have qualms about moving out your tita and being on your own at the old house...as a matter of fact you could have told your brother that you are to move already and your brother would just obey... but you were afraid to make that decision, you wanted your brother or someone else to make the decision...

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That was it!!!

You can't make the decision and no one did make the decision for you... if only... and the reason for that is that you are afraid that if you decide and things does not work out, you have no one to blame but your self...

you are always finicky... you are coward that way...

I understand... but one should avoid it... one should try not to... you shouldn't...